May 2013
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LIW, morning of May 18th 2013
Major concerns for the day:
It’s going to be hard to write today because we’ve finally hit a breaking point: Cam is about to get her second diagnosis that will help her understand herself because it’s more accurate, but be even more of a bullet in the foot to her relationship with her family, much as it was with me and mine.
Still have to explain why Vita was crying after her...
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oh hell
I never check my phone. I turn it on silent at the start of work and then forget to even look at it until the next morning when I plug it in to charge.
The message light was blinking when I pulled it out of my bag this morning. Not only did I have a bunch of wrong number missed calls (plus one voicemail), I had a text from Mag. She was apologizing for what I described as eye-rolling at...
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LIW, evening of May 17th 2013
Accomplishments for the day:
I managed to mostly rework the bad scene into a decent one that successfully led into Cam’s second diagnosis. Hopefully, this will continue into the dead time tomorrow. Again hopefully, there will be a lot of dead time this weekend.
I’d post more but I’m still incredibly tired. Here’s to more ambien CR.
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LIW, midmorning post on May 17th 2013
Cutting because I’m going to ramble about once-spoiler-y things about Vita.[[MORE]]
A long, long time ago, I showed Mag the original plans for Cam and Vita and a few other characters. In that original plan, Vita was to have abusive parents.
But now that I’m writing the scene where that’s revealed, I see why Mag rolled her eyes at me and said “not everyone needs to have...
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LIW, morning of May 17th 2013
Well, I finally slept a slightly interrupted 8-9 hours last night (gave up and passed out in bed around 7:30, woke up permanently around 4), so the world doesn’t feel as absurdly against me as it has the last few days. That, and I’ve forsworn any more apartment hunting until I actually have the 5-6K dollars I’m planning on saving before I move anywhere. (I am technically 1K of...
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Cutting because I’m going to grumble-mumble vent about more RL things.[[MORE]]
The two other places I looked at also require bringing in 3X the rent per month on your paycheck. This made me unhappy, to say the least. I like those places. But whatever, I guess. I did more searching and found some other places closer to where I live now in nice, slightly cheaper neighborhoods than I was...
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Aaaaaaand two of the places I was considering require that you make three times the rent per month at your job. Most of these places are over nine hundred and sixty dollars. I’ll make twenty-eight hundred before taxes.
I really hope the two other places don’t have this requirement.
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Okay. I managed to think really hard about the pros and extremely few cons of the four apartments/three complexes I saw yesterday, and I also managed to decide that the area they’re in is really a choice place for me to be. That cuts out two other locations I had planned on looking at today and leaves me with just one more place to add into my group of places to think even harder about. I...
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RL post
Cutting because it’s just going to be me venting about being overly stressed.[[MORE]]
Apartment hunting stresses the hell out of me. I took an anti-anxiety pill before I went to my appointment because I was starting to freak out (see also rollover stress from me forgetting my other med last night), which left me so out of it that my therapist said she would let me go early to maybe take a...
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LIW will be on pause today while i run my errands and apartment hunt. There may be writing done today, but it’s not my priority.
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I just completely forgot to pick up one of my medications that I was totally out of and now the pharmacy is closed.
Please excuse me if I forgo the LIW post for today and try not to rip my hair out and cry.
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LIW, morning of May 14th 2013
Major concerns for the day:
I am not being a very focused writer today because I have been doing adult things all morning long. This involved more apartment hunting and scratching out the beginnings of a budget in my head, plus planning on going out after my therapy meeting tomorrow to take a gander at these places I’ve gotten my eye on. It also involved calling back my dentist because he...
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LIW, evening of May 13th 2013
Accomplishments for the day:
I wrote a little and finally finished the positive scene in this chapter. It’s going to go downhill from here, and pretty sharply.
…I don’t have a ton to say. Today was very long and tiring.
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LIW, morning of May 13th 2013
Major concerns for the day:
I’m mostly worried about not having the time to write today. I have another dentist’s appointment this morning at 7:45, and I doubt that’ll be a short visit. (He’s replacing breaking sealant with a proper filling.) Then it’ll be off to work on a Monday, which is also rarely slow. I’ve got about twenty minutes to write before I...
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something before bed time
why
are
things moving
I didn’t want my brain going mushy and then seeing
CDs moving around in their spaces
can’t watch pictures move can’t let ‘em see me
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LIW, evening of May 12th 2013
Accomplishments for the day:
I wrote today, too. Not the absurd ten-twelve page combo of last weekend, but a more reasonable six-ten. I am quietly amused at the fact that I am actually writing bits of filler because it feels too awkward to break a scene only to have the next scene resume not forty minutes of real time later. It’s not bad. It’s just very different than what I...
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LIW, morning of May 12th 2013
Major concerns of the day:
I really hope I can burn through a lot of this chapter today. Not because I’m bored with it or annoyed (I’ve still got a good scene and a bad scene to work on), but because I can see the light at the end of the tunnel on this first draft. I’ve still got a few more chapters to go, but I can finally see the end really firmly.
It’s kind of...
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LIW, evening of May 11th 2013
Accomplishments for the day:
I wrote, but not as much as I’d like. We weren’t busy, but my supervisor needed help on her supervisor tickets and that took more than an hour out of my day.
But I did like what I wrote. I’m setting up for another positive thing that I won’t actually be writing in detail, and getting more of a fix on what it is I want to do with that bad...
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LIW, morning of May 11th 2013
Major concerns for the day:
I’m still debating on if there should be a scene like I originally planned it a few years ago. On one hand, it does show the character (I’m just going to admit it’s Vita) being very damaged and not as near-perfect as Cam sees her right at this moment in the writing, and it follows through on what was set up in the last chapter. On the other hand, I...
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RL post
I just need to sort of spew words all over the place about getting the job.[[MORE]]
I am still so blown away that they actually picked me over everyone else who applied. I don’t know how stiff my competition actually was, but after years of working in retail and never even receiving a second glance when I applied for better positions (or being told flat out to not apply because...
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LIW, evening of May 10th 2013
Accomplishments for the day:
I wrote! Not a ton, but my anxieties did resolve themselves once I had signed the paperwork and talked for a while with our HR woman and my old school friend about the position. It was fairly slow so I got in a couple of pages, and I expect to get more done tomorrow since it’s the weekend. Hopefully it’ll stay slow.
Something nice is happening in the...
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*quietly whines about having trouble writing, prays that this will resolve itself when I sign the work papers*
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LIW, morning of May 10th 2013
Major concerns of the day:
I have spent most of my time this morning looking at apartments and doing rough budgeting for this new job of mine, or alternately having severe paranoia that they’re going to revoke their offer before I sign the paperwork. This, quite clearly, means I haven’t been focusing on writing.
It is stupidly hard to work write now, both in writing and my customer...
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LIW, evening of May 9th 2013
I didn’t actually do any writing today. I’m taking the tact of “I’ve been highly irritable and hypomanic lately, so let’s take a day or two off aside from doing a bunch of real life errands.”
I’ll see if I can’t get a decent night of sleep and write tomorrow.
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LIW, morning of May 9th 2013
Major concerns for the day:
Well, I slept maybe five hours, which is never actually a good sign. I decided to stay awake at 5:30 after being awake an hour, and I spent half an hour doing research on apartments in my area because new job and significant pay increase. I’ll likely be twitchy all day and probably write a whole lot if my brother doesn’t convince me to play games. I half...
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LIW, night of May 8th 2013
Yeah I got nothing done today. Maybe tomorrow.
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LIW, afternoon of May 8th 2013
Um. This morning has actually been taken up by posts, replies, and errands and getting my glasses fixed (because they gave me different frames when I specifically told them not to; this optometrist office is full of idiots). So I haven’t thought about writing at all.
I’m still too overwhelmed by my promotion and—oh yeah, my brother just got a new job today, too. We’re...
slyrsterribleurl asked: Promotion! Congrats, keep kicking ass!
Anonymous asked: I actually have been bugged by this in a lot of your AU stories. Its not even you but the culture we are in, it makes you inadvertently do that kind of ridiculous stuff. No reflection on your writing which remains great.
tri-chan asked: Really don't feel guilty about this skin color issue. Okay there is no colored skin character in your story, but that doesn't mean that you have the obligation to put a color skin character in it only because to show that you are tolerant. That's your choice, not people's choice. Having no colored-skin characters in your story doesn't mean that you are racist.
hawthorneox asked: Congrats on the new job!
liobi asked: I am so so happy for you. If anyone deserved this, it's you
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deckerbunny replied to your post: uh
I remember it being weird when I first started noticing that in my writing.
It is not a very pleasant thing to notice. It’s a major reason why Kailas is swarthy of skin in her novel.
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bensimulator2013 replied to your post: uh
I didn’t even realise color was mentioned in frontierstuck! Unless there was an update on DA that wasn’t on AO3…
The first time the freak brigandrifts are referenced, Karkat says they’re all “pale like motherfucking rainbow drinkers.”
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uh
In the midst of being righteously pissed off at my optometrist not using my glasses frames like I gave them and subsequently charging me for new frames that don’t actually fit, I checked my DA. I found this comment left on Frontierstuck.
“I love this but do the kids all have to be white?”
…well that’s a valid point that’s mildly upsetting to read.
welcometoinnsmouth asked: Wait, you were promoted? Congratulations!
phrenotobe asked: Congrats on the promotion, Shinji!
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LIW, evening of May 7th 2013
Accomplishments for the day:
I wrote a couple pages, but I was too busy getting promoted to really think. Maybe tomorrow.
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Storytime from work (10/???)
I imagine this is going to get a little long because it’s a longer story, but…well…
Let’s just say that I am going to be a salaried worker off the phones once I sign some paperwork on Friday and the first proper week of June rolls around. :)[[MORE]]
I go to work early every day to set up my computer for the day and have a little settling-in time before my shift starts. ...
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LIW, morning of May 7th 2013
Major concerns of the day:
I’m trying to dig myself out of this mental pit that I got into yesterday, and it’s not easy going. It was hard to get any ideas for how to continue/complete this chapter and move onto chapter seven of ten (now technically nine of twelve with the two chapters I’ll be putting in around the current fourth chapter). My real life problems are interfering...
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LIW, evening of May 6th 2013
Accomplishments for the day:
Jack fucking shit.
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breaking my streak of LIW posts to make a random...
Primary reason I desperately want this promotion at work:
If the pay raise is significant enough, I might be able to go out and live on my own and be away from this poisonous fucking house I live in right now.
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LIW, morning of May 6th 2013
Major concerns for the day:
I really have to make sure I don’t have a double beat that repeats information that was said in a previous chapter, and I’m walking a fine line with the interaction in this section of the chapter. But I think I can keep it from getting awkward and repetitive by setting up something that’ll happen in later chapters.
Though I’m enormously...
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LIW, evening of May 5th 2013
Accomplishments for the day:
I got through another twelve or so pages of new writing, with little bits of editing done when I went to check a detail in the second chapter and wound up rereading a lot of what I’ve already written. It was both a compelling read (which is always a good thing) and told me it’s not actually that long yet. The pages are fairly small in these notebooks,...
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LIW, morning of May 5th 2013
Major concerns of the day:
Every time I write about Cam’s relationship with her parents it makes me sad for her. My parents aren’t the most understanding either, but they’re not as actively disinterested in me as Cam’s parents are in her. It gets really hard to write because a part of me wants to give Cam a perfect support system with all of her family, not just her...
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LIW, evening of May 4th 2013
Accomplishments for the day:
I wrote like, ten or so pages because it wasn’t too busy at work. This brings me to a point where the natural flow of the story is beginning to diverge from the original planning, at least in this section. It’s not a strong divergence or with any drastic changes, but I’m taking somewhat tentative steps into the writing.
But it should be slower...
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LIW, morning of May 4th 2013
Major concerns of the day:
I know I have a tendency to overwrite, and sometimes not a little. (It is extremely absurd to have written a 200K+ word fan fiction.) So I’m really worried about the fact that I’ve left out some critical development scenes for the sake of that overwriting problem, while still writing a lot in current chapters. And, of course, the fact that I’m going...
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LIW, evening of May 3rd 2013
Accomplishments for the day:
I wound up writing a lot and not getting as stuck as I thought I would on this scene. It’s not the really hard one that’s coming for Cam and her family, but it’s not fun because of how badly Cam always feels when talking to her mother and father (particularly her mother).
I also finally ended the notebook I’ve used for this story over the...
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life in writing, morning of May 3rd 2013
I am completely pulling things out of my ass, but I’m trying to develop ways of focusing on one project like I said I would in my last post, and this seems a way of keeping myself honest.
Basically, each morning before I start writing, I make a post about what thoughts occurred to me during my breakfast or my shower or my walk and what I either intend to work on during the day or have to...
